Written on 9 January 2009.
When my brother was in town, his biggest lament was "Chieh (hokkien for sister), how can you be so unfair?"
He sees that I pay less attention to Sophie, preferring Kayden more.
His observation's quite true.
I am the only one who can control Kayden and he sticks to me like glue. He is a monster to everyone else and they often throw up their hands in despair as he dont listen, thus run wild and throws tantrum easily.
For everyone else, Sophie, in retrospect, is as easy as charm. She listens, obeys and my brother even said, "Of the 3 kids (including his son, Nathaniel), Sophie is the easiest to handle, and most guai (hokkien for obedient)". My reaction? Pure SHOCK.
Sophie? Sophie has always been a monster to me, she cries and throws tantrum to get her way - most likely learnt from her brother, and cos she is too young to understand that thats not the right way, neither Gigi (when I am around to witness) nor I can reason with her when she goes into those foul moods. She screams and wails and throws her fists on the floor, writhing.
How could anyone say she is otherwise?
WK then shed a big light... the thing is Sophie is really angelic without me around - she listens and she is really very good. But when I am there, she just becomes the opposite, screaming always to get my attention, no one else can substitute for me.
So when there are 2 tantrum throwing monsters, I am irritated. I pacify K as he wont take anyone else. Gigi is able to handle Sophie. And see, I have just dug my own grave - so the saying goes. The more I stick with K, the less he wants to share me, thus the less time I have for Sophie, and thus the more she shouts for me. And thus, the cycle continues and continues.
However, since my brother left and having more adults around to play with the kids, I finally get to see my daughter, the real her that everyone else sees, and understand her preferred treatment from mainly her father, who finally had taken leave and was around.
Sophie is someone who will only respond to soft treatments. She does not like to have voices raised at her. Once she detects a higher pitch, she goes into a defensive mode and shuts off everything with a "No, no, NO" and the screams if she is forced to do something. However, if one speaks to her nicely she will obey.
Thats the only secret with her. Plus the fact that she is bribe-able :) When it comes to food eg "OK Mei eat this, Mama give u that" She opens her mouth wide and chomps down.
And this year, as I spend more time with her without her brother around, I am beginning to see the Sophie that everyone sees and love. The easy one. And boy, am I falling head over heels in love with her all over again... She is very cute, and mostly, largely independent.
She is OK to play by herself, and look, this morning, she arranged the books in a straight row again... She loves to then step over them like playing hopscotch except that its done with both legs, purely hop-walking :)
She havent learned the art of jumping thus bounces herself up and down on bended knees and says "Hop hop hop". She loves doing this when she is happy :) She will also jerks up (jumping her style) with one hand hitting the air when she is very happy with a particular news.
She loves rice, not noodles. She loves chocolates, cookies, cakes, sweets, anything sweet. Her favorite foods are the typical ones described in the children food books.
She talks. She loves to talk and can say most about anything. She calls lollipops "a-pop", dog "kog", many other funny ones. But boy she really can say a lot of words now :)
She loves to sing, dance and sway. And her necklaces, bracelets and bangles.
And she loves Elmo and Dora... Although she dont sleep with them, her security blanket is still the muslin cloth, or cloth diapers (when muslin's out of stock, ie in the wash :)).
And I love love that she loves something of her own... ie Elmo and Dora. She is developing her own personality and preferences. She is growing up and next month, she turns 2. My baby is not one anymore, she will be a big girl and one who loves to chat and play... mostly she is happy all the time.
She loves us all, and she knows that I love her. This is really important, as I do, truly, from the bottom of my heart.

Sorry, photo blur, only one I have, taken by K yesterday in the garden.
Thus is the hazard of being the family photographer :)